I remember loving you …
So this one time she asked me what I dream of
And I in the most rom-com way said
I am the dream of growing old with you
Of course with three kids, and three dogs
Because she could interrupt, I continued
You see, we know you don’t want kids, I do
We know I don’t want dogs, you do
This is a great compromise.
She laughs
And start thinking of names
It’s been two years now since that dream broke
And since that, I have wished for her on every shooting star
Tell me how impossible can a wish be to turn the whole sky dark you know they say
They say pain becomes art but they never tell you still hurts
I guess the big bang was the universe’s heartbreak 💔
We are breathing in the void of what’s left obvious of its pain
I tell your memories to the same, they don’t leave
I remember holding you like a tree holding on to the last lief the only prof of a being alive,
I remember the rhythm of your breath on my chest. It still is my favourite music cassette
I remember waiting to be the reason for your smile the way you were mine I remember thinking I should not, I remember the first time we met!
I tripped on a step and you smiled in that instance I feel twice
I remember you loving caramel custards so much that now I can’t have one without thinking about your love that took my sweets tooth away
I remember waking up to you and thinking how my dream has not ended yet
Explain why I don’t wake up happy any more
I remember things I want to forget
Things that hurt like a punch in the first fight in unlimited rounds,
Where I don’t push back because you told I was too kind to be violent
So I set them on fire.
Verses after verses
Poems after poems
My notes run out of poetry
I am out of breath but I keep burning
You see it is much easier to survive the smoke than see you and not hold you
I set ablaze everything that reminds me of you
But they say if you set the forest on fire from the centre, you don’t survive either The flames reach me and I don’t move
Growing old anyway does not make any sense now
